最後だ

It's 4：４０ in the morning, Saturday, the day I begin my return home. The day I wake up from the dream I have been living for the past 10 months, and return to the country I use to call home.

This will be my last blog before I get to Australia.

Went with my host sister and Kana-chan ( mums friend from work) to see Avitar which took my mind off my own emotional confusion in favour of traveling to Pandora instead of the reality of Australia. I enjoyed the movie emensely and wish I had been able to see it in 3D as Michelle sugested.

Today I went to school for my last day of Japanese school. Said goodbye to the teachers in the morning, and after eating a promised lunch with my friends, I returned home early to finish packing. It was hard to walk away from the school after explaining to the friends I have come to love, that I will be back as soon as I have done some things in Australia.

Hitamatsu sensei and Kito are coming to the station to see me off at 12. My current host family will also all be there but unfortunatly my other host familys cannot make it. Didn't think it would be over this quickly.

But it was amazing.

I realized as I walked away from the school ,as I read the last few bittersweet lines of this chapter, there is a new one waiting for me when I get home. To always read the same chapter, or to never let it finish makes for a rather boring story don't you agree? So I have decided that although to finish such a wonderful chapter is hard, it's ending so well. I look forward to the next.

It's -0C outside. I'm going to melt. Shall take a break to adjust before writing letters to the addresses I received.

Wondering how it will be to have my "real" family back again. Although my Japanese host familys have accepted me as their family and care for me very much. To be with the people who raised me, who shaped me into the person who was worthy of exchange. It is to these people I owe a great many things.My ability to be loved by so many here is largly because of how loved I am by those in Australia.

Wish you would make the effort of inviting some people around for a small party though.

I should sleep now as I know I won't sleep much on the move. I meant to go to BOOKOFF once more before I go home, but time is slipping so quickly currently. It's like one big collision of feelings so mixed up, that I forget time altogether. I have some left over manga for the flight and I will do my best to think of a good final speech for the JFIE meeting tomorrow evening.

それで留学が終わちゃた。
So now, my exchange is finished.

Thanks to all those who read my blog. I hope you enjoyed it and I will definatly have another "if" I end up in a forign country again ( knowing me, that "if" is actually "when")

べリンダ
Belind